I would just like to take the time to update whoever’s still reading my abandoned space here, on the interwebz. I would like you to know that life has been a total nonstop of crazy yet beautiful events. Work has been keeping me busy, a new lifestyle is slowly but surely forcing me to get up before sunrise, and that my sister in law is finally all moved in, and permanently here with us.
I haven’t been really good at maintaining this one, but I would also like you to know that my absence is more than just about my sheer laziness.
I don’t know how else to word this, but I may have self-diagnosed myself with mild depression (lol, right? Duane? Depressed? What!) Let me repeat though, that this was a self-diagnosis which means I’m no better than WebMD! I don’t really know what I’m talking about even if I hold a degree in Psych, IDK! Or, I’m probably just a freaking hypochondriac. I don’t know. But what I do know is that, I’ve noticed that I haven’t been completely like myself the past couple of months. I’m not as excited (God, I’m always excited about things!), I’m not as interested… I’m not as focused and not as… how do I say this? Hmm… pumped up about life. I feel exhausted and sluggish almost all of the time, when I have free time, I would rather sleep than do other things… I haven’t touched my books, I haven’t had the energy to watch films I haven’t seen. I’m always interested on the ones I’ve seen a hundred million times.
Everyday, no matter what I do or don’t do, I still felt down… even if I had no reason to be. It felt comfortable in a way, because it meant not exceeding as much effort. But at the same time, I knew deep inside that something had to change.
I wasn’t sure what to do, but I knew I had to change something about my routine. So, I decided to not even wait until January to sign up and join the gym. I got off my lazy, sluggish, uninterested ass and did it. It may seem like such a small deal, but to me, it felt like it was such a big step, committing to something that I wasn’t even ready for. I just went ahead and did it. Now, I’m not gonna write how much I’ve struggled with my little moment of unexplained sadness because that would just take too long. I will tell you that I’m getting better now. And that I’m finally regaining my old self back. I mean, come on, I’m over here typing away like a maniac now.
I guess, all I’m trying to say is, if you really want to change something about your life, don’t wait. Just do it like your life depended on it. Once you leave your comfort zone, that’s when it will all change.
Anyways, here’s a pic of me and my fambizzle. There’s five of us now. Well, six. Sorry Wolfgang.