I wonder how many people are actually dreaming of escaping their current lives, escaping from everyone they know and just jump to a plane somewhere far away… somewhere where the ocean and sand is within reach (I’m thinking Florida).
It must sound really nice to be able to do that. Walk away from everything and everyone for a hot second. Get a reboot, restore factory settings if there is such thing in human world. Because I would so love that right now. I feel like I have so much thoughts running around inside my head and I feel like the only solution for it to stop is to get away for days and think about ME for a change. I want to escape Michigan.
I’m currently in school, I have not enough amounts of money to make that happen right now and I just can’t leave right away and expect that my job would still be there when I get back. Coz really, you can’t just NOT SHOW UP whenever you please…
So, I’m right here… typing about the unreachable stars that is my dream of getting away. So, as for right now, I have no choice but to suck it up and face everything. When you think about it, facing everything and not walking away is really the right thing to do right? So, I’m just thinking that my inability to jump to a plane is the Earth’s way of telling me to keep doing what I’m doing. Coz I’m doing the right thing. If I wasn’t then, there would be a way, a deus ex machina of some sort would appear out of nowhere and give me a window to jump out to. But there is none. So, I guess… I’m stuck here with reality where everything is real and where everything hurts and feels good at the same time.