It has been almost a month since I last posted about my phase.
I wanted to make sure that I post an update at least a month after… So. How am I doing now?
For the most part, I'm doing better. Everyday, little by little, I try to pick apart the things that either make me who I am and the things that I think make me who I am. It's safe to say that I'm slowly learning the difference.
Once I decided that I wanted to make some changes, I took that decision very seriously. I figured at this point in my life, I should really take my time in caring for myself. I need to listen to what my spirit and my mind needs. Even if it means starting really simple and small.
- I take my time now. My "anxiety" (notice the quotation marks) likes to keep me on my toes for no apparent reason. I don't know why I always feel like I have to always be prepared for the next thing. All I know is that "preparing" or being anxious about something that hasn't happened yet (or something that's probably never gonna happen) is keeping me from living in the moment. Every time I feel a lil panicky, I breathe slow and remind myself to focus on what's in front of me.
- Some minor changes in my routine. Like driving to work using a different route. Or switching the order of application of my serums and moisturizers at night. I also bought a pair of cute heels to wear to work. If you know me, then you'd know that wearing heels aren't my thing. But, here I am.
- Really committing to do something fun. Last month, I forced my two brothers and my sister-in-law to see Incubus and Jimmy Eat World live with me. It's one of the best shows I've been to. Hands down. I also tried a different method of cardio. Like, instead of running, I tried swimming laps.
- Recently, I made a conscious decision to delete my Instagram app and twitter app on my phone. Just the apps! not my accounts. I realized that the whole concept of FOMO really contributed to my phase. While Twitter is fun and a cool new way to be updated with what's going on with the world, all it did really was stress me out. So I axed my Twitter app. Same with Insta, I feel like I'm just really there to curate and obsess about other people's curated lives that oftentimes, I found myself wishing that my real life can be curated as well. Maybe I'll be back and try my hardest to limit my time browsing on those apps.
Nevertheless, still a work in progress.
Be back soon.